Hello and welcome to my blog.

I have attempted other blogs but have yet to find one I stick to and consistently write in. This is my next (and hopefully last) attempt. There will be no particular focus to this blog but it will be my perspective of the everyday happenings of my life and my thoughts.

I am a young man in my early twenties trying to figure things out in his life. My past is filled with wild nights of partying, booze, and drugs. It was sex, drugs, and rock and roll minus the sex. …Yes, I am a virgin. This is mainly due to me knowing my whole life that I am gay but pretending to be straight to keep things good with the family and keeping my friends. I’ve had opportunities in my many years of partying to engage in some “action” (with girls…) but have always found a way around it. I think that its time for me to be me but this drastic change is really hard for me to make. I will still keep some things hidden from my family but I want to be more open to my some of my friends. I’m not much of a risk taker and I have a slight fear of the unknown but I want to be able to be me and be with someone I want to be with. This won’t be as easy as it would seem either since I’m not that comfortable in my own skin. I’m pretty insecure about myself and I know that isn’t a very attractive attribute but that is another thing I’m working to change.

So as of this point in my life, I’m going to try to turn my world around. I need to get out of my comfort zone because that’s the only real way to progress. My goals include trying to consume less alcohol, to use no drugs (or just use them recreationally, in limited quantities of course), be more comfortable with myself and being gay, and just try to be a better person in general.

It’s never too late to start anew.